So I just sorta kinda came to the realization that even though I have two weeks to get everything finished up over Christmas break, I still have to get ahold of teachers, over break, and get signatures from them. I knew this was going to be a pain in the ass, and that's probably why I waited so long to work on it. Which is why the realization kinda sorta came to me, not just HIT me like *BAM*...because I always knew it a little in the back of my head.
Also, I'm not passionate about anything. I don't think I really want to go into teaching. If I did, then I wouldn't be thinking things like that. I don't REALLY LOVE my job, but I like it. I'm not tolerating it, like I did Kmart, I like my job, but I don't love it. I don't want to go work out and get in shape. I don't have any projects that I really want to do, there's no clubs I'm a part of, I have no real close friends that I go do things with, I have no traditions. I have Aaron, who I love dearly with all my heart. I have my parents, who I see at least once a month now, which is fantastic. I have Aaron's parents, who have taken me under their wing and treat me as one of their own. And that's about it right now. All my close friends, the people who helped make me who I am, who I grew up with, have moved away, and so have I.
Wow, what a sob story. Sorry guys, didn't mean to be a downer on the holidays. I just get feeling poopy once in a while.
Oh, but with the new semester starting, I will have to buy a new "professional" wardrobe for school, so I will be getting myself some new classy clothes to wear to school here next week, and that should be fun and a good ego booster. G'night!
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